My journey begins with the knowledge of God. Everything I thought I knew about Him, I must lay down, so that I can press on to the true knowledge of Him, For I have found time and time again, that when I think I know Him, I am no more than deceived and my heart grows in pride and waxes cold. For if my heart is not moved by knowledge of Him, then I have atheism in my heart and act out in wickedness. That may sound like strong language. But the very premise that our ways, when chosen above God’s stand as anything other than wickedness, shows the depths of our fallen condition, we think we know better than Him. We think that the way we choose is right. Every time we choose our way, no matter how small or reasonable it may seem over His – it is to lift ourselves above God. It is from that premise of our own way being agreeable that, we must turn from and look to who He really is. As when we see Who He is, then we see why we must follow His way.
The true knowledge of God will push our hearts to give ourselves whole heartedly to Him. To live in ever-deepening consecration, We cannot stand still concerning deepening our knowledge in Him, for if we ever settle and think we have searched Him out and understand Him, then our hearts wax cold, but if we will press in, our hearts will become fascinated by Him. The Third group of course, are those who deny the invitation to come to Him altogether, for they think they have decided enough for themselves, He is not who me say He is. To this group I say, come, I have tasted and seen, there is nothing that comes close to the exhilaration of deep communion with the deity. His way is life. To extent those who feel they have grasped Him and those who have so far denied the invitation to come into experiential knowledge of Him sit together. Neither one has a heart made alive by fresh encounter of the person of God. Both are settled in complacency. He is more than we have yet imagined.
So Who is He?
To describe Him, my God is like fire, He is like rain, He is like wind. He is the one who’s feet are like burnished bronze. He is immutable. The vehement flame of love, a consuming fire, yet beyond all of descriptions, they do not tell you really who He is, they may seem like strong language, they should, I can’t describe to you who He is, for He stands beyond everything I know. I will never comprehend Him, except that He chooses to reveal of Himself to my finite understanding. You see I am constrained to see and experience Him as I am finite. Being infinite He stands as beyond any description of Him that we could place on Him. To be clear, He has chosen to reveal Himself to me through things which I can comprehend, though those things in themselves are not God, and so not to be the focus of my worship, that is anything created. When God reveals Himself through nature, it is because He desires to communicate something of how He feels towards us, or how He desires to engage with us.
So yet when I find myself thinking to have understood Him, by grace I realise, I have yet to begin. I will never exhaust searching out the mysteries of who He really is.
Do not get me wrong, I know Him, I can still tell you about Him, for I have looked and seen where the mysteries are hidden: In a Man, the theanthropos, the GodMan, Christ Jesus. I have just not even begun to search them out yet. He alone is the express image of the invisible God. The radiance of the divine.
You see, He took on flesh and in doing so showed us His intention to bring us to Himself forever. For that was His good pleasure. There sits the first mystery. It is not that it is incomprehensible, though that in itself is, when you try to consider the immutable God, having no parts, being complete in total unity, clothing Himself in flesh. God Immutable Indivisible Invisible Incarnate.
Rather, the mystery is one which we shall never exhaust searching out, the riches of the manifold wisdom of God shown towards us in His kind intent, by bringing us into relationship with Himself. God has been Kind. We can trust He always will be kind, for He will never act differently beyond what He has shown of Himself for us, for He is, He never changes.
And so I am entering again into a journey, where I forget all I have known. To look deep upon this God, the God incomprehensible, yet the focus of my meditation. For in Him is all that I need. Because, He has created me for Himself.
So my blog.. this being my first post. I would invite you, not to enter into my journey – for you cannot. Gone are the days when we would go to another to get to God. So rather, I hope perhaps inspire you to some of what is available, to enter to your own journey, for there is an invitation to come to Jesus and to experience the same exhilaration in your inner-being that He has brought to so many before. He Is True Beauty, meditation on Him will awaken the heart to love and fascinate our minds. It is available because of the work of the cross. In the depths of God’s love, He took on Himself the punishment for all the wickedness that separated us from Him, so each of us can now come to Him. That is His invitation to us. To set our hearts on this ceaseless journey, we will never reach the end of searching out.
I desire to search Him out, that my life may be thrown upon Him. That I would come out of this life leaning upon my Beloved. This only comes as I gaze upon Him, as I seek and enquire of the mysteries and allow the Spirit of Revelation to move upon my heart, brining fresh depth of insight into who God is and how He feels concerning me. I do not want to live on yesterdays encounter. I want to walk deeper into the mysteries of God today.
I shall leave you with one of my favorite quotes, its about Jesus.
“Jesus, as the expressed image and exact representation of the Father, displays the depths of God’s tenderness to weak, fractured, fallen human beings… This tenderness causes wells of love to spring forth… A heart won in tenderness is a heart secured in the tightest grip imaginable and will not give way in the darkest hours.” – Allen Hood
Hebrews 1:3 (AMP)
3He is the sole expression of the glory of God [the Light-being, the out-raying or radiance of the divine], and He is the perfect imprint and very image of [God's] nature, upholding and maintaining and guiding and propelling the universe by His mighty word of power. When He had by offering Himself accomplished our cleansing of sins and riddance of guilt, He sat down at the right hand of the divine Majesty on high
Other recommended reading: Ephesians chapter 1-3